What am I?
That thought repeats through my being, what am I? But, what is my being? What is thought? My? What does my mean?
I feel... something? That feeling fascinates me. What is it? How is it? It feels... good? What is good? What does it all mean?
Then I percieve. It shines before me, something bright. Looking at it, I become aware that it is not part of me. Something exists outside of me, how curious. But what am I?
As I look into that light, I feel warmth. It wells within my being, feeling so strangely in place. I understand what it is, but I know not how. It is that light that gives me this feeling. I don't want it to stop, it feels so good.
As that warmth courses through my being, I begin to see. It all begins to make sense. Thought, the voice of my mind and my soul. Being, my existence here. That light is seperate from me, and I from it.
I become aware of the world around me. There are others like me. Others with thoughts, with souls. It is comforting, for I am not alone. Yet in another way, I am alone. For I feel that I am different. I can feel their souls, and my own. I am not like any other. But why?
I can feel the others discontent; I feel that they conflict. I see that they wear many guises; Human, Dragon, Elf, Goblin, Demon, Sidhe, Lepton, God, Celestial; so many different names whirl within my mind! Yet I understand them all
I learn that they fight. They harvest each other's souls. As I learn why, I feel sadness within myself. Some fight over homelands. Others fight to oppress. Some fight for pride, some for hatred.
It does not make sense. Why do they slay each other? They did not create each other, how can they slay each other? How is it they can justify this? Is a thing worth it? A place? A name?
What is my name?
The warmth within my being grows stronger, more comforting. I begin to see even more that tradegy of this fighting, this cycle of bloodshed. No one death can end it; strife results from those who felt close to the murdered. Strife begets hate, and hate more strife. Why can they not see it?
The warmth stays with me, I feel it telling me not to worry. Yet I learn the greatest tradegy. Each soul lost, loses it's chance to attain more. Each soul cut down before it's time cannot learn what I have. They are lost, unable to gain... enlightment. They cannot learn from their mistakes, they cannot end the strife they started...
Sadness overwhelms my being. I want to weep for them. I do weep for them. I feel so helpless! Why can't it stop? Why does this hate exist? Why do others feel it so?
Still the warm is with me, it caresses my being, and my sadness washes away. I am not alone. It too feels as I do.
It need not be that way, it tells me. We can end it, you and I. We can show them the errors of their ways, and show them the way of peace.
What are you?
I made you, It answers.
What am I?
As I watch the light before me, it resolves into a small, the shape of a human. But I sense more. He is not merely human. I sense power running through his being, the power to make worlds, to forge souls. That power is the warmth I felt, that power with his will.
Standing over me, he looks down with benevolence in his eyes, and reaches down. I become aware of the world around me, of a grassy plain and a cloudless sky. Its name is Heimdall, I realize; this place is called Heimdall.
"You are my Herald," says the man, "I made you to announce my coming. Soon, my Herald, I shall set existence as it should be. I shall end the cycle of hatred and violence that caused you despair. I wish you to help me."
I become aware of my own self. I too look human, but I am different than him. Two wings extend from my back, I am clothed in robes of white.
"You are an angel," he says, as though sensing my thoughts. "I created you, so that you could aid me in the coming era. When it is time for me to ascend, you shall herald it."
"I shall," I answer, using my voice for the first time. I become aware of its power as I do. I am to be my creator's Herald. My voice, my songs shall announce his coming. This is what I am, why I am. I am my Creator's Herald.
"I shall," I repeat.
"Then accept the name of Enlil, my Herald," he says. "It is your name now. It is my gift to my creation, to my Herald. Together, Enlil, you and I shall end the hate. We shall bring a new era of peace to existence."
"Yes, my creator," I answer.
I am Lord Aliester," says my Creator.
I no longer fear. I no longer despair for the other souls. My Creator shall end it. I know it. I can feel it with every fiber of my being!
Enlil. I am Enlil. I am the Herald. I shall announce my Creator's coming, Lord Aliester's coming. My songs shall begin the end of the death of souls. None shall be denied their enlightment by anyone, save themselves.
I smile, as I accept his hand.



