Short and depressing.

[Rainbow Fright]

I've been listening to Tool all afternoon,and thus,a short little story of sorts from Rain's POV...*Angst-Alarm blares*

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I wonder what my mother would think of me now.

I'm on my knees in some godforsaken back alley of this equally godforsaken city,staring down at my bloodstained hands and weeping uncontrollably.

I try to tell myself it's just the rain --and smirk inwardly at the irony of that logic -- but I know I'm bullshitting myself. I can feel the tears trickling down my face,so warm in comparison to the cold,unforgiving tears of the sky that pour down on me from above,soaking me thoroughly and washing all the makeup off my face,but not all the sins I carry in my heart.

Cold and unforgiving the rain is,indiscriminating of whom it punishes...just like me,huh? It's a suitable namesake. Cold,dark,and bleak,just like me.

Only thing is that it can give life as well,while I can only take it away. I can't do anything positive. I'm a killer. Killers can't love. The capacity to love was beaten out of me long ago. I'm the walking dead. Empty,soulless,heartless,emotionless. A mere shell of a living being,a mockery of life.

I'll wash the blood off,but I'll never feel clean. The stains will be gone from my body,but they'll remain on my mind. I'll still see them,though nobody else will.

Blood in the snow. So pretty,and yet so horrible...

Blankly,I look at the prone form of my target. He could very well have had a family,a wife,children,was someone's child...but now all he was was so much blood and meat. Throat ripped apart by my claws,laid completely open,their body covered with welts and gashes from my whip --I'd flogged him a good while before finally killing him,beast that I am-- eyes torn out,blood all over the walls,all over the ground...and I could hear myself *laughing* over the thunder,over the screams...I had *enjoyed* it. The exhiliration of the kill,the sight of spilled blood...

Another life smashed by someone who'd never really lived. Maybe I'm so brutal to my targets because I'm jealous..I've never had a real life. My employers never call for this kind of excess,after all. Only for the target's death.

It's just me. I'm jealous. I know I am. Jealous of everyone else who's had a chance at a happy life,one that I never got. Angry at the world because fate dealt me a bad hand. I'm taking out what *she* did to me on the world. It only proves I'm no better...

I'll wash the blood off,but I'll never really be clean.

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<table><tr><td></td><td>"We're entering my head,
Feeling like I'm God,
With the world around me..
Can't you feel this pain?
Seething through my heart?
Screaming through my veins?"

-Smash Me,Erase Me-</td><td></td></tr></table></p>

[Rainbow Fright]

*Coughs* Commentary would be appreciated,yes? ^_^ <p>

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<table><tr><td></td><td>"We're entering my head,
Feeling like I'm God,
With the world around me..
Can't you feel this pain?
Seething through my heart?
Screaming through my veins?"

-Smash Me,Erase Me-</td><td></td></tr></table></p>

[Jaded Ahroun]

Of course, we all know how much *I* like depressing, angsty and bloody, don't we? Yeeees, we do. ::applauds:: Nice angsty piece, Rain. Good, as always. ^_^ <p><FONT SIZE=1>Current quotage:
"Why are you eating icecream off your fingers ... DON'T TOUCH ME!" --Scream
"Tjord! I'm gonna sing the Tjord song! Tjord! Tjord, tjord, tjord, tjord, tjord, tjord, tjord, tjord!" --Rain
"Knowledge is power. Power corrupts. Study hard. Be Evil." --Chi</FONT></p>

[Endesu]

Well!

Pretty good.. >_>

<_< I like the detail you take in describing how she feels..

Mmyep. *gives a cookie* <p>-
Please do not bite the Moogle.</p>

[Rainbow Fright]

Thankee,thankee. The Gothikitty loves commentary and such. You have made her happy,and thus,will be spared from her biting or burning you in the future.

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....for a while,at least. ^_^ <p>

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<table><tr><td></td><td>"We're entering my head,
Feeling like I'm God,
With the world around me..
Can't you feel this pain?
Seething through my heart?
Screaming through my veins?"

-Smash Me,Erase Me-</td><td></td></tr></table></p>

[Uncle Pervy]

I dunno the character well enough to give a good commentary, so I'll just say what I've picked up from the story.

She's obviously an assassin of some kind, and seems to take a little too much glee in doing the actual job; then regretting it later. I might even venture she has some kind of curse or affliction; but she might just see her own state as such.

Definately angsty. But well written. ::Claps:: <p><table align="center" cellpadding=2><tr><td></td><td align="center">Rum, White Magic, an' Cabbits.
That's th' life fer me.

Seig No-Pants!</td><td></tr></table></p>

[Rainbow Fright]

Yes,Rainbow is an assassin,and she takes no joy in killing others,though she tends to do it in a very messy,sadistic fashion out of the anger she feels at having been deprived a real life. Her father was a philanderer and her mother,to put it in the nicest possible terms,was a drunken whore,who routinely beat poor little Rain during her childhood. She learned that fighting back against her would only make it worse,so she took to hiding her emotions,and she can't help but continue to bottle them up even now. She tells herself she can't possibly care for anyone,and that she's empty,soulless and worthless on a regular basis.

Rain customarily wears thick,heavy goth makeup *points to her Personal Photo,which is of course,the character in question* to hide the scars on her face given her by her mother when the woman took a knife to her in a drunken rage. She has a Kenshin-esque X on the right side of her face,and a diagonal scar slanting up from the left corner of her mouth.

I should *really* get to work on her background ficcie...I'm bad,and I pocrastinate too much. 9_9;;


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<table><tr><td></td><td>"We're entering my head,
Feeling like I'm God,
With the world around me..
Can't you feel this pain?
Seething through my heart?
Screaming through my veins?"

-Smash Me,Erase Me-</td><td></td></tr></table></p>Edited by: pd Rydia&nbsp; at: 6/8/05 21:02