by Endesu » Thu Nov 04, 2021 1:48 am
Ah. That was how it all ended, then.
She couldn't say for certain as to what exactly had transpired, but a flash of white, a surge of pain, and a sudden, abrupt feeling of bodilessness served to cue her in as to what had just happened: she had died. She was still there, in a sense; she could ruffle her feathers up just as well as she could when she had a flesh and bone form, but it obviously wasn't quite the same. There was that aforementioned sensation of not having a body, after all. Some translucence going on here as well.
Quite a bit to consider here. The source of this whiteness that had now come to cover everything immediately around her. If they were capable of just doing this in the first place, why had they waited until now to do it? The rather anticlimactic nature of her demise, considering the stakes felt as if they had been building up towards some large, climactic battle with whatever had been responsible... wasn't it a little girl of some sort? Where everybody else had gone... likely fellow victims of whatever this stuff was, but she didn't see them around anywhere.
Many thoughts running through her incorporeal mind, but one rises above all else: a memory. She had been talking with Mr. Greg the night before all of this had happened, just outside of the bar. He had apparently died more than once, and she had been curious about how it had gone for him. Not that she necessarily sought out death, but she couldn't deny that, deep down, it had been something she's desired for years now. Losing everybody she had known and cared about still weighed on her, even now, and it seemed clear that the only way she would have to see them again would be to join them in the beyond. She hadn't asked for this opportunity, but fortune had bequeathed it upon her, so who was she to refuse? If she allowed herself to linger and think about those who might not have died with her... she might not get this chance again. These people she had run into seemed to be capable of so much, who's to say they wouldn't have a way to bring her back? Not only that, but the longer she mulled over it, the more her present regrets might keep her here.
She had not died before, so she didn't have much experience with this part, but she presumed she'd just need to wait for a Grim Reaper of some sort to stop by and soullift her out of here... but the more time that went by, the more clear it became that nobody was coming. Well, if that wasn't an option, she could always try to tap into the connection she'd once had with those she'd lost. Maybe since she was dead as well now, it would work and allow her to move on... maybe she'd be able to skip over the middleman that way?... but before she can really start focusing on that, a voice suddenly pipes up behind her. Presumably not belonging to the long awaited Reaper, either.
"Shit, hold up. Don't go passin on, will you? Took me long enough to claw my way through alla that shit."
She turns to find that she's no longer alone. It's Shamash, acting less like a monster just barely suppressing her bloodthirst and more like... well, Shamash. The cat looks far worse off than she does, given she's almost practically transparent - just a few steps away from fading entirely. She's clutching something tightly to her chest... a flicker. A sputtering flame, on the verge of going out. Multiple, in fact.
The felynar sighs. "We mighta gotten wasted, but we still managed t'hold onto ourselves well enough for whatever reason. These others... 's far as I can tell, they're what's left 'a the others. Prolly woulda flickered out entirely if I hadn't found em amidst alla this shit."
The harpy tilts her head thoughtfully. "You seem to be taking all of this relatively well. Ms. Shamash, I presume that it's you again and not that werewolf infection?"
The cat scoffs. "Yeah, it's me. Least painful way I've gone out t'be honest, but it was enough to wipe that shit out in my system. Kinda like mustard clearin' out my sinuses, I guess?"
The bird wanted to laugh, but that desire to move on and see those who'd left her still clung to her heart. "That's good... perhaps you should see if you could find Ms. Lillian... or Mr. Greg... or Mr. Asty as well. I've got a chance at something, so I think I'd like to..."
"OK, like I said, don't go fuckin passin' on." The cat firmly states, marching up to her. The weakened flames are no longer visibly present on her person; she'd taken them into herself for the time being. Done with an almost casual gesture, as if she'd been made familiar with it beforehand. That done, she firmly places a hand on one of Tess' wing. In spite of her weaker presence, that grip is a strong one.
Tess pulls away, un-tilting her head just so she could shake it comfortably. "I'm sorry, it's just... there are people I lost quite a while ago. This is the perfect chance for me to see them again, so... I know it might not be fair to ask in this particular situation, but..."
"Not fair? You're damn right it's not fuckin fair." Shamash reasserts her grip on the harpy's wing, and holds more tightly this time. "Look... I get it. I lost my whole goddamn family years back. Fucked me up for the rest 'a my life. Deep down, I'd like nothin' more than t'see them again, too... but it ain't just stubbornness keepin' me clingin' to this coil, y'know?"
Tess looked away, though she doesn't bother to break the cat's hold this time. She knew where this was going.
"There're people who've done me right, and are countin' on seein' me again. Might not always make sense t'me why they'd care about a fuck up like myself, but... feels like it'd be wrong to turn my back on alla that." The cat continues. With a sigh, she drops her generally brusque tone, and sounds as if she's trying her best to not come down too heavily upon the harpy. "Ain't just me, obviously. You got people carin' about you, too. Doesn't take a fuckin' genius to see you and the Doc have a little somethin' goin' on. The kids in the village, too. You really just wanna disappear like that, and leave em with a hole in their hearts?"
"... are you saying I can't be allowed to move on if I want? I finally get the chance to move on and I can't be just a bit selfish? Obviously I don't want to just leave any of them like that! I'm trying to not think about it!" Tess practically shouts in response, still looking away. "I can't be as strong as you and just shrug these things off, you know! I'm sorry!"
Tess yanks herself away quite firmly now, back fully turned to the cat once again. Shamash is forced to restrain herself from sighing. "Look... trust me, I just barely hold myself together half the time. Only reason I hold up in spite of alla the shit constantly assaultin me is because 'a voice in my head... don't even have that anymore... and stubbornness. I'm too damn stupid to ever wanna throw in the towel."
At this point, she does allow herself to sigh, as she seems to gather up the nerve to spit the following words out. "If you really wanna move on, I ain't gonna stop you. Somethin' that works for me ain't gonna work for everybody else. So, if at this point, y'really wanna see those folks again, I ain't gonna judge you for it.
Just... just... fuck it, fine, it wouldn't just be the Doc and those kids that would hate t'see y'go. It'd be me too, alright? I ain't known you for long, but..."
It is at this point that Tess slowly begins to turn back, but before anything further can be said, something passing for a message - but not quite - washes over them. A call for help. No words are transmitted, but the individuals involved - as well as the stakes for failure - are made clear. Tess' feathers ruffle up quite a bit in response - it's been one surprise after another for her today - but Shamash greets the message with a smirk. "There y'go. Ain't just any 'a us that might be left, either. Other folks in trouble with alla this shit goin' on, so might as well help 'em. Might be able t'help with this ghostly shit after all's said and done, y'know?"
Tess is facing her now... presumably... her feathers are still so ruffled that her expression can't even be read... but Shamash does not badger her further. "I'm gonna start movin' towards 'em... try to maybe flare up my ghost juices or whatever, see if they can maybe send a line or somethin' out my way."
With a nod, she begins heading off... but she's stopped after just a few steps. Tess is behind her, now. Feathers settling. Looking like she's trying to build up resolve. "Ms. Shamash... wait. After everything you've said... and that man's call for help... I..."
She blusters, blush staining her features as she finally builds up the will to say something stronger. "I can't just go like that. If Ms. Lillian, Olive, Kyle, Mr. Greg... if any of them are still out there and in danger, I can't very well just go and leave them be."
The cat looks back to her. "Y'sure? What about the folks y'wanted t'see so bad?"
Tess maintains that will. "As much as I want to see them again, I doubt they'd be happy if I abandoned loved ones for their sake. I'll see them again. Just not yet." Her feathers ruffle up again, and she shakes some of that ghostly down away, as if shedding any further feelings on the topic.
The cat smirks and nods. She doesn't look particularly surprised by this change of heart on the harpy's part, but she says nothing on that. She turns and begins heading forward once again, presuming that the harpy will follow along...
... but the harpy speaks up once again. "Wait! Wait, Ms. Shamash. One other thing."
Shamash looks back, unable to hold back the sigh this time. "What? That dude sounds like he really needed the help. Hell, might already be sending out a line t'us. Can't it wait?"
"No! Just one more thing." The harpy protests. "What you said about also hating to see me go... does that mean you..." She trails off, but that blush from before is furiously staining her features. The cat sighs even harder now.
"OK, look... I'm pretty certain I can actually FEEL the guy sending out a line for us." She states. "I think he prolly really needs us t'get our asses over there so he can focus on alla the shit goin' down there. We've been talkin' for what feels like an hour already here, doubt he's got that long... sides, what about you an' the Doc? I ain't got any interest in steppin inbetween that..."
"I know, I know! Please, just... Ms. Lillian is the one I'm most interested in. There's no doubt there. She's the one I'd feel the absolute worst about leaving behind, and I would have had an easier time forgetting that if you hadn't brought her up. We Elysians, though... we naturally look for multiple partners... and I'd like to get to know you better too!" She trips on her words, composure faltering. "Please, just... I'm not asking for a definite yes or no, but... would you at least think about it? Getting to know me a bit better? If, if you really don't want to, it's fine... I don't want to pressure you... just... all of the chances you don't take, right...?"
The cat deeply sighs, stops, and turns back to her. "I barely know about this kind 'a shit, so I dunno how much of an answer I can give you. I ain't much for the social niceties, 'specially not those of the birdland y'came from. I ain't gonna say no, alright? Let's just save it for after we get alla this shit taken care of, and you check back in with Doc. If y'still got that shit in your head after, check in with me then. Alright?"
Tess cheerily nods. "Thank you, Ms. Shamash..."
"Just Shamash is fine, alright? Let's get fuckin goin already, seriously..."
So it is that the spirits of a felynar and an Elysian harpy, as well as the remains of those that had been with them, hurry along in response to the call for help...