Itâ€™s kind of funny, you know. I may be the only one contemplating what to choose off of this shelf here; not for lack of money, given that I just got my pay, but instead what suits my tastes. In fact, I bet most of the people who come here have only a very general idea insofar as what they want, and randomly pick the first thing that comes to mind. Of course, people wouldnâ€™t think of me as the type whoâ€™d be choosy; after all, on-base, Iâ€™m either known as â€œthat guy with the psychotic A2,â€ or more commonly, â€œthat pervert.â€ Slack in class, hit on girls, pilot a weapon that would probably enjoy destroying literally anything and everything she felt like; even moreso if she got fame and glory for it. Yeah, I would be thought of as a common skirt-chasing cocky flyboy Tek. Hell, they wouldnâ€™t have even thought that I was the one who shot down that psycho Tek-Mage scientistâ€¦Izue, thatâ€™s his name. Forgot he was related ever so distinctly. They donâ€™t know me that well at all if I sum up to that in their heads.
People often think I talk to women the way I do to get in their pants. Hell, one of my squadmates was trying to keep me away from Helena thanks to that assumption, I think. Bullshit. I talk to women the way I do because I like women. My way of saying â€œHey, I like you.â€ Itâ€™s my way of getting close to them, and really, just who I am, I guess. Some like it, some donâ€™t. I donâ€™t press the issue on those that donâ€™t like me. Itâ€™s just my way of being friendly to them. I know itâ€™s not going to be close, they know itâ€™s not going to be close, itâ€™s just fun. And really, isnâ€™t that what matters? If both parties are fine and happy with it, and itâ€™s hurting neither, then there is nothing wrong at all about it.
As for sex, I never have and donâ€™t plan on it. It just creates too many complications, after all. Girl gets too attached, I get too attached, suddenly itâ€™s too deep, and itâ€™s out of the realm of what I deal in. Itâ€™s no longer fun, plain and simple, and seriously, that defeats the point of what I do. â€¦at least, thatâ€™s what I used to think before thenâ€”Iâ€™ve got more personal reasons now as to why I donâ€™t. Sure, I talk to attractive girls, make passes toward them, and so on, but I just like them. Nothing more. Unlike Stinky, who I swear seems to be unable to make the distinction between an actual relationship and sex; I mean, come on. Who in the hell thinks musk is a basis for a relationship? Heâ€™s not looking for a damn girlfriend, heâ€™s looking for a blow-up doll. He just refuses to acknowledge it.
Back to the subject at hand, though...a lot of people donâ€™t look that far when it comes to women. The majority would simply generalize their perceptions of beauty, when not realizing that thereâ€™s a hell of a lot more insofar as distinct variety goesâ€”not just externally, but insofar as personality and the way someone essentially â€œcomes offâ€ to others. Ask every guy what they find most attractive on a woman, and I guarantee you, at least two thirds would either be unable to identify, or they would say something along the lines of â€œbig titsâ€ or â€œbig assesâ€. Occasionally, you may get something more than two words out of them, but thatâ€™s the exception for that sort of answer. Hell, Stinky would likely say that. Really, those types donâ€™t see the subtletiesâ€”or even the major differences half the time--about beauty, I could easily say. Looking around, you can easily see the variety there is. Itâ€™s not hard to miss, after allâ€”unless youâ€™re one of the aforementioned two thirds, anywayâ€¦
Even in broad strokes, you can see it. Starting with arguably the most â€œobvious,â€ elves tend to, more often than not, have a sort of fragile, delicate beauty to them; in a sense, almost like the aspect of nature the majority of them were said to revere and worship long agoâ€¦I canâ€™t believe I remembered that from history class. Anyway, then you have drow; yeah, I know theyâ€™re pretty much blue-or-black-skinned elves with a hell of a lot better night-vision, butâ€¦maybe itâ€™s the cold war with Kaâ€™thalar right now or whatnot, but they seem to almost have a â€œbadâ€ appeal to them. Nekojin and Inujinâ€¦they end up more along the lines of â€˜cute,â€™ as far as my opinion goes. As for bastets, well, at least the one I have seen, if elves were the frail and delicate aspect, bastets would fall more onto the feral side of things. And I must wonder if they all get those tattoosâ€¦
Then you have the types who are more â€˜out there;â€™ dragons, demons, and celestials, I mean. Dragons come off as rather â€œdangerousâ€ in a sense, though they wouldnâ€™t look like it in first glanceâ€”I mean, after all, they look like you or meâ€”okay, maybe not me, I donâ€™t look quite the same as humans. But that detail aside, weâ€™re often taught to believe that dragons are huge fire-or-whatever-breathing lizards that can also fly. I guess itâ€™s one of those odd things where, given that theyâ€™re holding back their real bodies in that human or elf form, you also think theyâ€™re holding back a hell of a lot of everything else; power and emotions both. Then youâ€™ve got celestials, which I swear, my mother must be messed up in the head about. Theyâ€™re more of two types, I guess you could say; either following the pattern of elves, or possessing a more â€˜ethereal,â€™ otherworldly, almost untouchable and unapproachable beauty. I havenâ€™t seen any in person, with one arguable exception, but thatâ€™s how they appear from what I have seen.
Iâ€™d have to be drunk before I believe anything my mother seems to speculate about them, thoughâ€”brushy penises to scrub the sin out? Holy water in place of vaginal fluids? Singing when they climax? â€¦forget drunk, Iâ€™d have to be on some sort of crazyass drugs to believe â€“that- about celestial anatomy. And speaking of my mother, I must say that having had a demon as one, Iâ€™m not quite so sure I see the appeal that some have for them. Butâ€¦that would be a personal issue, wouldnâ€™t it? Regardless, the MILF jokes plus my mother going along with them and teasing me at timesâ€¦ugh. No thanks. And as for humans, they seem to run the entire gamut. Except for the genderless psycho-bitch marines that somehow get transferred to the same unit that Iâ€™m in. Those are all the same. Every single last one of them.
And then there was Helena. I personally donâ€™t know what it was about her that I fell for; sure, she was attractive as hell, as well as distinctive, but there was something more about her that I just couldnâ€™t identify. And it sure wasnâ€™t the angel of death thing. Hell, she seemed like a normal person; maybe a bit out of touch with the things that the rest of us are used to, but otherwise normal. When did Iâ€¦Iâ€™m thinking back when we faced against Makuraâ€™s younger brother and his hot sister. I think thatâ€™s when I mightâ€™ve started having feelings for her, even though I obviously didnâ€™t realize it then. It felt like such a short time that I was with her. Even if she was unwilling to reciprocate, claiming it was for my sake, and that I needed a mortal girlfriend, and all thatâ€¦I just donâ€™t know. I still try to piece all the things about her in my mind at times. And sometimes I feel like itâ€™s my fault she did leave. After all, I killed, essentially, the reason that she was sent here for. I did it. I canâ€™t blame it on Nanashii; sheâ€™s just an A2 symbiote inside a Personality Core. Yetâ€¦if I didnâ€™t kill him, I couldâ€™ve easily been killed myself. He wouldâ€™ve been offed by someone else anyway, knowing how he was just sitting in some normal mecha inside the neck of thatâ€¦thing. But at the same timeâ€¦meh. Nevermind. Last thing I need is Reshtaha to get me locked inside a stockroom in this place. That would beâ€¦awkward.
â€¦screw it, less contemplating, more decidingâ€¦ah, here we go. Just have to head for the cashier, show them my MAC ID, pay in credits, and then leaveâ€¦
â€œSo, thatâ€™s two issues of S.S.M., one of Hentaisha Monthly, and one issue of â€˜Weâ€™re Going To Hell For Taking These Picturesâ€™ forâ€¦â€
â€¦Donâ€™t you fucking dare judge me.